damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it.. IM FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wah crap la wasting my time as usual.. cant i just grow up n b mre serious in my work!?!?!? wtf i doing la O level this year leh! BUT I CANT MAKE MYSLF STUDY!!! plus.. y must i think of so many weird things! i cant concentrate with all this thoughts which drowns my brain.. I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO CHANGE I WAN TO CHANGE I WAN TO CHANGE I WAN TO CHANGE I WAN TO CHANGE I WAN TO CHANGE WWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WAN TO CHANGEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
won west spring n bboys r in the finals. i dint play well that day, was scared as i gt the weird feeling 2 years back but still manage to win. oh well.. but nationals coming oso leh, scared nt enough time revise work n all.. well another cny coming up, so hope im lucky n win some money!! haha
Things come n things go, everything that has a beginning has an end to it. there may be hidden reasons y it ends, its up for ppl's perspective to c it anyway. one choose to giv up love for other partys joy. one can oso choose to giv up to giv themselves a break or to overcome certain obstacles. well, love is really a strange thing i would say. i hav witness the joy love can bring to a couple n the pain love can do to a couple, lets just say that love is really something of an oxymoron kind of thing.
aiya best thing universal love, everything oso love, everyone oso love, shit oso love. some religion or tribe ar i heard whos culture is universal love or something, which means to love everyone. if u choose to love everyone, then isit that u nid to sacrifice the love of the one n only for the whole world? but still, how i wish i could hav the mindset of universal love, then i wun get sad over one love. hmmm i shall try it then, c whats the result. so even if i lik someone i oso wun say. yeahhhhhh!!!!
extras- li sheng jie songs damn nice!! all the song so emo so meaningful!! wah.. becoming gay over him. lol
hmmm.. y r so many ppl surrounding me trapped in love? here wan jio there wan jio. then ppl tgt ppl break up. for ppl jio-ing other ppl, gd luck :) if broke up dun b sad, things will get over :) if ppl jio u, SHUANG LA gt ppl lik xD "feelings" is really a weird thing. it may come n it may go, u may cherish the opportunity given to u or just flushed down the sink. it really feels bad when ur opportunity flies away. u swear n u curse, wishing that u could go back to the past to change it. what will happen if human beings dun love? nt as in frensship but couple couple that kind of thing. then everybody would b frens, though we will miss out on the fabulous joy in relationships, but nobody will ever get hurt. if we sacrifice love for a fenship that will last forever rather thatn a relationship that u dun even noe if its going to last lik a day, which one will u prefer? frens r frens for life, what about lovers?
tried not telling anyone who u lik in order nt to let this so called "secret" spread out? saw ppl doing that but kinda failed cause i noe, once u tell someone about it, it will feel fairly better than just keeping it inside of u. silently watching n observing the person u like without anyone knowing, abit stalk la ( my perception though when i use the word stalk) but still it feels quite gd. ppl wun lik :"HEHE! looking at her again ar?" or " eh she down there leh nv say hi" or something along that line, well aiya u noe what i mean. For me, i guess i dun wan ppl to noe who i like anymore, unless i really take actions then i will say, or else nth will come out of my mouth. i dun wan to b in a situation where everybody noes including the girl n the girl starts avoiding u. okay just saying that i dun like anyone now. I've been asking myself lately, is there really what u call true love that last forever? seeing divorce rate going up n ppl breaking up n stuffs like that. i c the elderly, some just sleep on the same bed but leaving a totally different life frm each other. though there r really a few sweet elderly couples still holding hands tgt, but.. i feel that there r mre ppl nt in love anymore sad to say... Eternal love? or just bullshit..
Exams finally over, well for nw. n here comes my west zone omg :( kinda scared la, i hope i dun pull the team down becoz of going into sub-set :X i feel so bad whenever i cant block the ball n the spiker spikes through to the centre then no one take, lik its nt suppose to let the defenders take coz its the blockers job. wahhhhh i shld start training on leg muscles again, too slack for legs recently. okay dun talk about vb le or else i stress. common test was okay i guess. just hope that i dun fail lik shit again when i say its okay. always the case :( anyway recently i keep read english newpapers, hope can improve my english by abit. ah... so tired aft this week ct, must get a gd rest today coz tmr full day training. i will b mre serious in training! i will i will!
With the first week of school over, common test is just a few mre days. Nt forgetting west zone which may start next week as well, depending on our draws. what to do? common test le, still nt veri ready for exam, n that west zone, my last season of sec shcool, must play well. If only i could split into two, 1 for study n 1 for volleyball, how great would that b. Monday english n ss, my ss only revise lik only a tiny little bit, that aint gonna help me pass my ss man :( ahhh... better mug in the weekends when im free or else im DEAD!
Hmmm.. i wish there was something that can motivate me n study lik how benjamen does, really salute him man only study study study nv c him play one, come sch in morning study go cca study aft sch go home straight study, i guess he really wants to get gd result, can c his determination. if only i could b 30% of him, how great is that...
If you work hard, the results are easy, if you work easy, the results are hard.well thats what i learn today. mayb share some other nice nice sentence next time hehe.